Oh! Bye October? Hi November, Stay and Chat A While

Ouch.. my last post was saying bye to September and when I wasn’t looking October flew out the door too!

I miss you guys so I was happy when I found myself with no plans tonight. I’ve already put on a coat of nail polish, once it’s dry I plan on moisturizing my hair and putting it into chunky twists.

Fitness

I am on my third week of diet/exercise! I find my food choices have improved drastically. I miss chips but I find that allowing myself some yummies in small portions infrequently helps me from going absolutely crazy. My friend S and sometimes L have been at the gym like fiends. And we’ve reached the point where we get bummed out if we miss a day so we’re there quite often. Usually after work. It’s night-time dark by 5:30 PM here (thanks Daylight Savings…) so all I want to do when I get home is jump into my flannies (flannel jammies) and veg. Tonight I’m lucky enough to do that because I ran 10k on the treadmill this morning (ack!). Tomorrow I’ll be gyming in the evening.

Why am I hitting this again so hard? I tried on a couple of dresses I have and was just so done with looking the way I do. I don’t want to gym to get ‘skinny’. I may have said this before. I want to gym so that I can see positive changes in my body. I want to look and feel strong. I want to run easily and I want to be comfortable in the clothes I wear.

My biggest hurdle when working out is definitely my period. It’s not the early mornings or the last 2 kms on the treadmill. It’s feeling like a bag of crap and still putting on my gym wear and getting out there. It’s avoiding foods that make me feel cozy when my insides feel like they’re getting chiseled away at. So let me tell you it’s going to take everything in me to just buckle down and do it.

Life

My bf and I are planning a NYE not here. We’re going to kick it in the big city with a couple friends and enjoy some time off together that isn’t here. I’m really excited. It’s just what I need to look forward to. We’ve both got our time off approved and so we’re going to book hotels/flights this weekend.

Also! Between the two of us we have 3 (potentially 4) holiday work parties to attend. Mine are Friday and Saturday of the same weekend and it just so happens to be on a boat (holla)! To save ourselves from a drive home in what will be plenty of snow, we’ve got a hotel Saturday night and will just take the shuttle there. I’m so excited. It kind of gives me a boost to work out hard so I feel great that weekend.

Raffi has his winter tires on so I’m just waiting for the snow to creep lower down the mountain and eventually cover the town. I do love when it snows. Especially that first full snow. Everything is muted. Quiet. Still. And it looks gorgeous. I’ll have to make sure to capture my surroundings this winter.

It’s also been raining for literally, the past 4 weeks. A solid month of rain. We’ve had 3 rainfall warnings during that time. My new gumboots have definitely made themselves useful.

Rocco

Rocco has been behaving. He rocked a bomb twist out Sunday evening when my bf and his family came over for dinner. He’s so soooft! I’ve gotta moisturize him and put him up so he can stay that way. I also desperately need to order some Shea Moisture Curl Enhancing Smoothie. It’s a great product and keeps my hair moisturized, smelling great and feeling so soft.

Money

I need to do better at budgeting and sticking to it. I can put away a large amount of savings no problem. Then I give myself a little spending money. But then when my money runs out… I end up picking up my Mastercard… I never hold a balance on my card, but that means I have to get the money from somewhere (savings) to cover my purchases. Not the route I want to be taking. So I need to figure that out. But I decided to have an automatic transfer to my RRSP every paycheque so that’s one less thing to worry about. I just need to decide what sort of retirement portfolio I want to take part in… I also need to figure out what that really means, yknow?

I hope you’re all doing well and I can’t believe this year is wrapping up so quickly. It will be Christmas then New Years’ before we know it! I’m thankful for every day I get.

Why Does It Only Rain On Weekends? Gr…

Why is it sunny and hot throughout the week and raining on the weekends?

Answer me that.

I was planning to bike to the coffee shop to meet my friend but… I’m not feeling it now that the heavens have opened up.

i did run 10 k today with L. It was a good pace. Next weekend I’m going to try my race pace for 10 and see how I do. I’m feeling okay right now. No real aches or creaks. I’m really excited for our trip. We have a wedding coming up in three weeks so we thought of knitting them a blanket together since we have 16 hours on a ferry. We’re meeting for coffee to look up blanket patterns for the wedding present and meal/packing plans for our camping trip.

I haven’t had beer in about 6 weeks. Ever since I started my gym plan May 20. So you can believe there will be a cooler full of beer for the evening after my race and it will be glorious! lso this Haida Gwaii trip will be belt, jeans and underwire free. It’s gonna be a weekend of leggings softy bras, and baggy everything. I can’t wait.

I’ve been keeping up with the gym. I know I need to put the maximum effort into each workout in order to see results, but it can be tricky.

Rocco

I’ve been keeping Rocco twisted away during the week. About two weeks ago I had a couple of days off and I just had to let him loose. He was so full and big it was great. He started out with some definition in his twist-out, then it was a little rainy and he poofed a bit. But he still looked great and I rocked him big and proud for the day.

Yesterday I made a huge mistake. I was getting out of the shower and saw my friend was heading to the market. I thought, sure I’ll go with. This was the first time in forever where I was washing my hair loose instead of in 4 braids/twists. I put on a headband and wore a large puff, did some towel drying and headed out the door. I had some water dripping down my neck which was uncomfortable. I didn’t mind wearing my hair out but in the back of my head I knew it was not going to be fun getting Rocco back in order afterwards. But for now… I just wanted to enjoy some veggie rolls, chicken kabobs and rice noodles as is my summertime Saturday tradition.

When I got home I knew it was on. Put in a Will & Grace DVD and I got to it. I tried to start with finger detangling because I knew my hair had dried in zig zags and spiralling around each other. I also hadn’t deep conditioned it so my hair was squeaky and felt really brittle. It was not fun. It’s all twisted up now and I have (re)learned my lesson. I honestly haven’t washed my hair loose or let it air dry like that for over a year and this experience confirmed my reasons why.

Life

I really wasn’t sure what I was going to wear for the wedding that’s coming up so I gave in to peer pressure and ordered two dresses from Forever 21… ugh. I was at L’s and she was ordering two dresses (why did I give in to peer pressure? Believe me there was a lot of mental back-and-forth. I even checked out how to cancel the order, but they don’t have that option so looks like two dresses will be heading my way. Of course as soon as I got back from L’s I looked in my closet and was surprised to see a suitable summer dress from (yep) Forever 21. It was a Value Village find. I’ll make sure to post the options and you can all help me decide! 🙂

While I wasn’t happy I spent $68 on dresses, I did get my quarterly GST rebate a week later so that helped. I put the majority of it onto my  MC to cover the dresses. Thanks for the dresses Government of Canada!

My first adjusted student loan payment went out. Blah. Bye $1000. I’m glad I’m doing this though since $150 is interest paid, so really I’m only applying $850 to my principal. So with my previous payments of $392 I was applying only $242 to my principal. Don’t be satisfied with only paying the minimum. Unless you want to hang on to that debt for forever and pay so much more than the original.

Oooh! At the market was a kennel of about 6 puppies. They were SOOOO CUTE!!! They were $50 and ADORABLE! AAAAGH!! I held one and he fell asleep in my arms… gosh.

Dresses:

What do you guys think?

Thoughts On My Fitness

I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain weight.

It’s one thing to lose weight but how do you maintain that? I can go crazy at the gym for 6 weeks, shed 8 lbs but the week I don’t go to the gym, sure I may be eating the same but will all that weight and those inches come back? I’m sort of in a place I’ve never been before. I’m working out and running because I want to lose weight. But then what? Last summer fitness was more a part of my daily routine. I biked to work. It was amazing. My body responded. But now it’s a battle between what I eat and how much I work out. I want to see results, I don’t want to see the effects of sitting for 75% of my day. I want to slim down and I want to stay slimmed down much like my 18-year-old self.

I don’t have the chance to run like I used to. Weekends are basically my only opportunities. Or mornings on the treadmill.

Why am I focusing so much on my weight? Because I don’t fit my jeans like I used to. Because I feel myself jiggle when I walk over to the printer. Because I want to be able to run 10k on a Sunday morning like it ain’t no thang. And I know I can get there, but if I ever stop, even momentarily, I feel like I have to start all over again.

This is as much a ramble as anything.

What are my fitness goals? I shouldn’t be too concerned with weight and my current 140 lb self isn’t going to aim for my previous 120 lb weight. But I would be more than happy with 130 lb. And feel free to take all of that weight from my tummy.

Why do we want flat tummies? That’s where our food goes. Do we want to look like we don’t eat or do we want to be able to wear crop tops and be able to see our belly button? Just a question. Is it because magazine covers promise us we can have ‘that belly’ in ’10 minutes a day’? That’s a sure fire path to self loathing right there. I spend more than 10 minutes a day on this area and I haven’t seen a whole lot.

There’s a lot about ‘feeling good’. I want to workout so I ‘feel good’. But is that criteria that allows us to feel good created by us individually or shaped by what we see on covers, on TV, on tumblr and instagram? I know my answer.

I don’t buy magazines but they’re looking directly at them when I’m in line at the grocery check out with all the mixings for amazing nachos. Yeah, they’re looking at me. And I’m looking right back going, my job consists of me sitting for 11 hours. Not doing yoga-lates for 4 hours a day in my private gym with my personal trainer sorry!

If I feel healthy, which I’m starting to, and if I feel like I’m comfortable in my clothes, I’ll get there, then I’ll be a happy camper. In the meantime I’m not going to become hysterical for this reason or that. I’ll be thankful I’m here. I’ll be happy I’m healthy. And I’ll strive to improve myself one day at a time.

My Week: Running, Rocco and James

I’m pretty proud of myself. Yesterday I planned to go for a run but instead had a luxurious sleep in. Today I gave myself the boot out of bed and hit the road. Running outside is a luxury compared to running on a treadmill. It was fantastic. It was overcast and a little cool today but no rain which was ideal for me. And guess what? Yeah, I ran 10 k. Whoo!! And I ran it in under an hour!!!

It went like this. La dee da. Here I go! On the road and feeling pretty good. What should I do today. 6 k? 8 k? You know… let’s do a 10 k. I need to know I’m capable of it still. And off I went.

Nearing the end of my run I was sitting at 9.3 something. I was sitting at about 56 minutes? I wanted to get this 10 in under 60 minutes so you’d better believe I kicked it into high gear. It was a race against the clock and I came in 59:20. How’s that for squeaking in? Aaah it felt so great! I should have kept going just a little longer because I looked at my RunKeeper afterwards and my longest clocked run was 10.6 k. But hey maybe I’ll just go for a 12 next time?

I’m really happy to know that I am capable of running a 10 k well in advance of my race. And knowing my benchmark right now will help me see my improvements. I’m a happy girl.

ALSO!! The gym has been my best friend these past 2 weeks. It does help. In so many ways then I can count. My day is just better. I will definitely keep that going.

I’m currently sitting with a bag on my head (it’s Sunday, what’s new right?). I finally bought myself a new hair dryer. I bought one for $50, then promptly returned it when I found one for $25. If the blow dryer styled and twisted my hair for me I would’ve gladly shelled out that cash but otherwise… $25 is just fine. I can finally toss my 9 year old hair dryer that makes horrible revving sounds and I’m sure will short circuit any day now.

My hair in the front is now past my chin. It’s crazy. I try and treat Rocco right in hopes he’ll just do his thing and keep on growing. So far it’s worked out well. It’s been 2 years and 3 months since my BC and I honestly couldn’t be happier.

For the rest of the day I plan to make wonton soup (Yum!!). Later this afternoon I’ll be hanging at the coffee shop with my buddy L to plan our trip to the Island next month. Weeeee!!

Oh yeah!! I forgot, last week B and I went to the coast for a couple days to hang out. It was fantastic. It was nice and warm, not raining as usual, and we had a fantastic dinner and a fabulous ocean sunset view. I also took home a crab. I named him James and James was one feisty crab. And he was also delicious. My mom was not impressed with my naming our dinner hehe.

Hope your Sunday is treating you right!!

A Week So Far

It is crazy how effortlessly the pounds and inches pile on.

The gym has been my morning coffee and my morning ass kicking for the past week now. Has it been easy? Meh. At least it’s not winter where the hardest part is going from the house to the car. It’s nice out, still dark as night, but if it’s windy it’s a warm wind and traffic is zero.

On Monday I stepped on the scale and saw that I was 2 lbs away from reintroducing myself to my heaviest weight. I knew I was creeping up there but there was no way I was willing to restrict myself on my long weekend road trip so I decided to deal with ‘all that’ when I returned home. So Monday after I got home I saw my reality and realized what needed to be done.

Do you know what I was doing unconsciously while shopping on my trip? I was attracted to and looking for loose fitting shirts. Yeah. Loose. I didn’t want anything that hugged my body I wanted shirts that floated away from me to take focus off my tummy. Blah.

Thursday after work I bought a gym pass and Friday morning I was at the gym at a little after 4 in the morning. Yeah. Crazy. Crazy good. I’ve been to the gym every day this week and it’s exactly what I need. Working life takes up my time from 5 AM to 7 PM and I stress myself out trying to fit something in after work and before my 9:30 PM bedtime so getting it out of the way before I’m really awake is my best bet. Waking up isn’t that tricky, it’s going to bed in good time. A couple of times this week I woke up on my own a couple minutes before my alarm.

I don’t gym on the weekends. Those are my absolute rest days. But Saturday I plan to run 10k with my buddy L. I’m also going to shop for glasses (yay!) I’ve had mine for waaaaay too long and need to switch it up. It’s my birthday on Monday (eek!) so Saturday the boy and I are gonna go for a mini road trip and it’s going to be wonderful 🙂

As far as working out, I do have a goal. But I mostly want to see results. I want to shed inches more than I want to shed pounds. I want to feel good. And I want to feel and look strong. I think I’m heading in the right direction.

As far as hair goes, I’m a big fan of mini twists and I wear them all week. On the last day I may untwist them and wear a twist out. So for gyming I generally put them in pig tails. As long as they’re off my neck and face I’m happy. I try and pay attention the ends *shuffles feet* with shea butter lovin and some coconut oil. Sometimes when I’m sitting at work I’ll squish one of my ends between my fingers and if it makes a sound like crunchy autumn leaves I know it’s time to get them watered haha! But as long as my hair is not touching my skin I’m ok. And yes, I do sweat. But I haven’t found that it’s been an issue for my scalp so that’s a bonus. I’ll make sure to keep you posted on my routine.

 

Friends and Fun!

This weekend was lovely 🙂

I worked all week and decided to work Good Friday for some good old fashioned overtime. My student loans aren’t gonna pay for themselves so I may as well.

Friday evening was build your own pita pizza with L and we watched a movie and hit the hay.

Saturday morning I woke up and went home early so I could get started on my hair. I was about halfway done blow drying it when my bf texted asking if I wanted to go for brunch. Now B’s brother is in town and I hadn’t met him yet and both Thursday and Friday he asked me if I wanted to join them for drinks but Thursday I went for a run after work with L and then it was bedtime. And Friday I had already made plans with L so that didn’t happen (he needs to give me a liiiiittle more notice). So I really wanted to make brunch with what I assumed was his whole family.

B: Did you wanna go for brunch?
Me: That sounds good, what time?
B: Right now.
Me: ooh I can’t… I washed my hair early so I wouldn’t have to do it tomorrow and I’m still 20 mins from finishing it 😦
B: We’ll wait half an hour for you
Me: Ok! I can do this!
B: Yay! Let us know when you’re ready

First off… SOME NOTICE WOULD BE NICE! ‘Right now’ is never a good response when you’d like me to be somewhere. But I went on superdrive and finished blow drying my hair and putting it in 6 fat twists. I’m whizzing around thinking I’m holding up his entire family with my hair games.. I released the twists and combed them out and was met with a poof of hair (which I loved!). With a few bobby pins and an elastic I put it in a really simple side pony and I was good to go. I wanted to high five myself I was so impressed with my results in the timeframe I had.

There were no parents at brunch. But I still felt pretty and put together and met his brother and had some good laughs so it was great!

Saturday afternoon included a great bike ride with my guy friend T, pepperoni sticks from the local corner store (soo good!) and some video games with the gang. I met up for coffee with L and P and in the evening was a nice fire. It was such a great day.

It’s crazy though, I feel the need to cram my Saturdays with as much social fun as I can because I really don’t see anyone during the week. And I FINALLY got Hermie on the road. My butt bones are sooo sore after that first bike ride but they’ll just have to toughen up because next weekend L and I are biking to the lake!!! Eeee!!

The local Farmers Market starts up in May and L and I have the perfect routine down! Saturday mornings will include 9 AM yoga and at 10 we’ll walk across the street for some delicious Filipino food at the market. Yaay!! My favourite time of year!!!

Today I had lattes at L’s and we went out to look for a Wii for her ( we didn’t find one) and I found myself a nice light jacket shell which is perfect for biking and light enough that I can wear a hoodie or sweater underneath. It’s also long in the back which is great for biking and I just prefer a long jacket so I’m really happy I found that. I’m going to do my taxes (boo), clean my room (double boo) and prep lunches for this week (yay? I guess…)

L and I are also planning a road trip for May Long weekend so I am preeeeetty excited about that one 🙂

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

I Want To Get Fit, I Swear!

It’s sooo haaaard!!!!

I want to see changes in my body.

I want to run faster and longer.

I want to compete in my goal race in July.

I want to make good food choices.

But food has this hold on me!

When I zone out in meetings I’m usually thinking about all the food I could be eating… scalloped potatoes, yorkshire pudding, nachos… when I veg with my friends we don’t chow down on carrot sticks. Being hungry isn’t being happy to me. Being hungry means being hangry, cranky, annoyed, sad… chowing down makes me happy and content and feeling like I just did myself a solid.

When I went to the gym in the mornings I was pretty good at keeping my eating habits in control. Back when a 6 am gym time was a pain, now it’s a luxury. If I want to exercise in the morning before work I’m looking at a 4 am call time 😦 I really feel like I need incentive. That carrot on a string in front of me… sad right? I mean I enjoy running. Especially on the weekends. But I have the whole day to walk around, be active, be outside. When I’m sitting in front of a computer for 10 hours a day I want to distract myself and enjoy some part of it. Yknow? Anyone feeling me?? How do you blast through that wall of blaah and just kick ass? I need some guidance here!

A lot of these apply to me… “24 Hilarious Ways Girls Struggle With Food Everyday”